crossing over

to nerdville...

i have joined the world of blogger... i can now crown myself the queen of the nerds... playing settlers of catan on week nights, carrying around c.s lewis books in my purse, watching LOTR with a trivia book, and who knows what on weekends (dungeons...).

maybe i'll start a emo band... or an underground theological society... we can be called rivendell... ^_^ or the junior ets... ha!

in other news, i got a job! yay! i will be the only receptionist at an animal hospital that is allergic to household pets... yes! so it might not be the brightest idea in the world; however, i do like animals and a job is necessary. so far it's a win win situations... i'll let you know if i pass out or anything.

continuing with prayer...

there is a part in The Magician's Nephew that implies how lewis viewed prayer. The children, Digory and Polly went on a journey to fetch an apple from a tree for Aslan to protect Narnia from the witch (also known as Jadis). On their journey both the children had forgotten to bring food along with them. here's the dialogue they had about being hungry and how no one had provided food for them.

"Well, I do think someone might have arranged about our meals," said Digory.
"I'm sure Aslan would have, if you'd asked him," said Fledge (the horse)
"Wouldn't he know without being asked?" said Polly
"I've no doubt he would, " said the Horse. "But I've a sort of idea he likes to be asked."

God obviously knows our needs and is very capable of providing for us. there are times when he chooses to bless us with or without our asking. But going back to the idea of prayer producing humility, the recognition of helplessness or the need for wisdom is also realizing that our own powers are not enough... something more is needed. I do think that likes it when we realize that we need him and he is always more than happy to help.

prayer is a funny thing. it stems from and leads to so many other theological issues. sovereignty, love, grace, mercy, trust... i think in the end, my problem is that i don't trust that God has my best interest and i think that it is useless to pray because he probably just doesn't care. so there, that's my false belief. ick.

does anyone know where my nail cutter is???