the misguided search

walking into the entrance of target one will immediately notice that to the left is the cashier and to the right is the cosmetic section along with various toilery items. my goal for the afternoon was to find coconut butter. this should be quite simple considering the location of the lotion isle and it's relation to the cashier. my estimated time of this rigorous search should have taken no longer than a few minutes. when in reality, my search ended up taking me nearly 20 minutes! i walked through the lotion section, the hair product section, the cosmetic section, the body wash section, the nameless female product section, and still could not find my coconut butter! as i was about to give up on my search i decided to walk through the lotion section one more time reading every single bottle of lotion... and there it was, at the very bottom shelf in the middle of the isle was a bottle with the words, "cocoa butter."

and now i smell like cocoa.

my life is a misguided search... every inch of my body desires to turn to all the misguided direction... my mind wanders into unknown worlds to distract me from this one...

but tonight, i want to be like hosea. i want to love and obey God instead of searching for my own selfish desires... to the point where i am willing to walk into a pain for His glory.