ending the months of silence

hello.

i'm sure at this point i have lost what few readers this blog had months ago, but i think i will humor myself, feed my vanity, and pretend that i have something worthy to be documented on this world wide web.

first, a brief update on my life with the talley's these past few months. it has been wonderful over all. for those of you who know me well (which i suspect is all of you... since i am convinced only Tdogg and Linz read this thing), know that i have many particularities... God seem to have given me an overflowing amount of patience for them... it is probably because they are so full of love that most of the things that typically would irritate me to no end, really brushed right off. i dealt with the curfew just fine and was never bothered by it. while i did, on a daily basis, push andrew's towel a little further on his side of the rack so that it did not touch my towel (anyone else think used towels touching is gross?), i refrained from asking the teenager to keep is wet towel away from mine. although, there has been a few times when i wanted to ask joni NOT to talk to me while i'm in the bathroom... it's a privacy issue really... ^_~ All in all, i love them... i am sad to leave and the whole processes of moving out has been emotional, but rewarding as well. the Lord seems to continue to provide and daily remind me of His commitment to the good and well being of my soul... which comes with so much pain and sorrow, but alas, His glory has been seen... and has been very evident these past few months.

which brings me to my second topic. for the past couple years i have attempted to participate in lent, to no avil. in fact, i believe i broke lent after only two weeks... this year, however, has gone far better. i must admit, it was done out of selfishness. i had originally hoped to lose some weight, cut unnecessary sugar out of my life, and quit my addiction to carbonated beverages. let me tell you, my faithful readers, it has been a difficult ride! i am surrounded by candy, chocolate, and soda at work. i literally see it every half an hour or so and every one around me is either having a soda or eating candy of some kind. it really is amazing that they're not all obese... just a couple of them. =)

i came to the realization last week that temptation is everywhere. there have been so many moments when i have wanted to give up and grab a coke just so i can stay awake at church or just have a tiny bite of chocolate so that i don't go insane. and almost on a daily basis i would walk to the frig at work just to stare at the soda for a few seconds debating whether i should have one or not. and by the grace of God i have been able to run away... sometimes stomp away in frustration. i have never been so aware of my weakness and so painfully aware of temptation...

Jesus is amazing. I am humbled.



*sigh* my last night here was spent watching basketball with the family. how appropriate. =)

i am blessed.

ps
stay tuned to passion week...